Friends 'R' Family

scrappinfreak · Family Member

If you would like to leave a message for me you can leave it here.

I am using the other half of this for a journal.

scrappinfreak · Family Member

Well rolling through my life kinda weary just cause every time I seem to start getting a little happy then wham something comes in and knocks me back down again.
I started Tysabri two days ago and I am hoping that it is really going to work to fight against my MS.

Sorry I just like to use a lot of pictures if it is easy to do like it is here. I will be going once a month for the injection and I guess so far so good.
I have now been broken off with my long time boyfriend for almost 20 days. It seems really strange to think that I am single and searching.

scrappinfreak · Family Member

I have been so sad the last couple of days I don't know why it has now been about four months since my best friend passed away, but I have been very sad again just crying at the drop of a hat and thinking about him constantly. I am thinking it could be that I am looking to make some major decisions in my life again like I have recently left my long time boyfriend and I am looking for a new one and normally I would go to my best friend for advice or just someone to talk to. But he is not here in the physical sense now I know that he visits me still but it isnt the same cause I miss his hugs.
And also again I am missing my dad who passed away in november of last year it just all seems so painful and so fresh.
How the heck am I ever going to get myself out of this slump. I just keep trying and trying and then falling back and crying and crying.

mrsmuffin · Site Manager

You are on the right track, you just keep trying. I'm so sorry for your losses. I know that sadness breeds depression but we are here for you.

scrappinfreak · Family Member

Okay I must be going crazy or something. I thought I just posted in here??

Oh well I am starting a new medication tonight this one is called Copaxone this one is not quite so dangerous and has been out for 15 years and thats quite a track record if you ask me.
My doctor took me off the Tysabri cause it has killed 2 more people and with me having a reaction the first time I took it he did not want to play with fire. So we are going to try this and I really hope it works for me even if it only worked as well as Avonex did when I first started that.
Me and my ex are finally history have been for me for a while but we were trying to play the friends game and that wasnt working very well so I just decided to tell him that we were calling it quits all together. I think it is better this way cause It gives both of us freedom. Not like he was ever that bad to be with I just was not feeling the same around him anymore.
I have opened myself up a little bit to a couple of guys on the internet and one of them is a true poet writes poetry and the other is a very wealthy man and cute too. Right now I am just trying to live without a boyfriend and it is different cause I don't have anyone to talk to. Cause also my best friend of nine years passed away in April of this year.

Shirley · Graphics Manager

Hi...........I'll just repeat what mrsmuffin said.......

We all are here for you.......please feel free to post all you want.....

Hugs and God Bless........

scrappinfreak · Family Member

I always appreciate all of the support I can get it seems as though I never no which direction I am going in except right now I should be headed to bed cause it is really getting late and I am tired but today is my 35th birthday ahhhhh I am really freaked out. I know I am going against almost everyones advice and I am falling for the rich man you should know that I will be very safe I have already had one offer of my nephew going on my first date with him kinda incognito he is a really big kid and really protective of his aunt plus I know the rules about meeting strangers.

Well that tears it I am going to bed I just got a chill and I need to be in bed its almost 2 am.

ResidentInsomniac · Site Admin

Happy Birthday Scrappinfreak!

You did make the post asking for comments regarding your situation. It was posted on Page 8 of the Coffee Shop for August. Here is the link for that page: http://www.friendsrfamily.forumarena.com/friendsrfamily-thread2557-140.html

There were some responses to your question.

I wish you luck with your new medication. I just did a quick research and it does look very promising. If you ever need to talk, email me or PM me.

Your nephew sounds like a wonderful young man.

Big Hugs to you!

scrappinfreak · Family Member

Things are starting to work out really strangely. I never thought I could have such feelings for someone on the internet but he seems so genuine and sweet and wow. I know that the poet that was in my state I guess I lost him he just kindof dropped off the website havent spoken to him in about a week or more, could have been something maybe. But I think with my Millionaire I think he genuinely cares about me we spent about 2 hours Instant messaging this morning and got some stuff sorted out. My ex is relentless he just keeps trying and trying. It is just not there for me anymore.

scrappinfreak · Family Member

Well well well
I am finally back to make another post. It seems these days have been filled with one thing or the other.
I have finally settled down to just letting one man pursue me, I believe my ex has truly finally let go of me. And any other relationship I might have had going with any other men is gone too. I am most happy this way. I am trying more and more to every day to give him my heart and I am receiving his. He has taken the worry and concern out of everyone by suggesting that he be the first one to come and visit me. And if we have chemistry and everything else seems right then we will get married. Then move on from there. I am not fearful for the future anymore I have new hope new happiness and definitely new direction.
The Copaxone that I have been on has been treating me quite well, and am very happy with that. It seems that the more and more I think I am going to lose my E. Man. the more he just tells me how beautiful I am and that he is not like other men. I found out that I have to be on a C-pap mask at night now to breathe, his response well does it help you feel better and will it continue to help you. And most guys in my past and all would have been totally different.
Anyhow I am really seeing a deep love for him developing and I am truly finding happiness. You know I have heard people say that if you find someone that can bring a smile to your face and make you feel that way all day and beyond that you should never let go of that person, that they were meant to be a part of your life. I don't intend on letting my smile go.

mrsmuffin · Site Manager